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Music Speaks: Just Be Held

Music Speaks: Just Be Held

Just Be Held

by Casting Crowns

“Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding onJust Be Held

And when you’re tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There’s freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go

When your eyes are on the storm
You’ll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross you’ll know
I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted
In time you’ll understand
I’m painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in my hands

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where you’ll find Me
And where you are, I’ll hold your heart
I’ll hold your heart
Come to me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who won’t let go

 So when you’re on your knees
And answers seem so far away
You’re not alone
Stop holding on
and Just be held
Your world’s not falling apart
It’s falling into place
I’m on the throne
Stop holding on
and Just be held”

Along with a few others that I will likely be writing, I happened across this song during my husbands last hospitalization. Since that day a little over two months ago, these words have been a great encouragement to me. One of the first things that I did when I picked my husband up from the hospital, was share this song with him. I had it all ready to be played when he got off of the bus that brought him back into town. I wanted to share with him this reminder that I think we all need at some point. “You’re not alone.” Perhaps if we weren’t always trying so hard to solve our own problems, we would be more easily able to “stop holding on” and allow God to take over. If we would really rely on Him, and believe that He is able and will help us, what might happen? Good or bad, things happen according to Gods plan. When you’re strong, it is all in Gods plan. When you’re weak, God is still God, and He is still in control.

It has been a tough and constant reminder that I do not have to be everything to everybody. I am not “everything,” nor was I intended to be. I am not supposed to be able to hold everything together all on my own, along with holding everyone else together. I am supposed to rely on God, and He is able to be everything to everybody.

“If your eyes are on the storm you’ll wonder if I love you still But if your eyes are on the cross you’ll know I always have and I always will.”
Oh how true this is, and can only be known by experiencing it. If we are too busy focusing on everything that is going wrong in our lives, we will miss out on so many good things that are happening, amazing things that have happened and the best thing that has yet to happen. If we focus on the cross, and what happened at Calvary, we can be confident that any suffering that we endure has a purpose and that if we remain on the right path, we will be rewarded in ways greater than we can imagine.

“Where you are I’ll hold your heart…”
Again, how absolutely true. This is a fact that I’ve known, but I keep relearning it. It doesn’t matter where we are, good times or bad times, God is there with us. He never leaves us. If we feel that He has abandoned us…the problem is not God, but the problem is with us. If we can’t see Him working, even in the bad times, there is usually a pretty good chance that we aren’t really looking.

I encourage my readers whoever, and wherever you are, to just take a moment to know and to feel that God loves you. You are in His arms. He is surrounding you with love and comfort. No matter what you are going through, He is bigger, and He is in control. This should be a habit. This needs to be something that we never forget. After all, He doesn’t forget about us.

 
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Posted by on August 18, 2014 in Music Speaks

 

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Music Speaks: Strong Enough

Strong Enough
by
Matthew West

You must, You must think I’m strong
To give me what I’m going through.
Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I’m wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

Well maybe
Maybe that’s the point
To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I’m finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well that’s when I start looking up
And reaching out

Cause I’m broken
Down to nothing
But I’m still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong 
when I am weak.

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

I know I’m not strong enough to be
everything that I’m supposed to be
I give up
I’m not strong enough
Hands of mercy won’t you cover me
Lord right now I’m asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

I feel that little needs to be said in addition to this song. This is very exemplary of where my heart is at right now; crying out for God to be my strength when so much has gone so wrong.

“Maybe that’s the point, to reach the point of giving up. Cause when I’m finally at rock bottom, that’s when I start looking up.” A less eloquent version of this line has been running through my head all week, as I’ve known that I am not alone in all of the troubles I’ve been dealing with. Giving up was certainly a first thought, yet it was immediately followed by appreciation for the need to rest on God.

“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
– 2 Corinthians 2:10

 
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Posted by on March 17, 2013 in Music Speaks

 

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Music Speaks: “Monster” & More

Four years ago, I married a monster.
He as wounded, lost and filled with rage. The monster that I married believed that God was to blame for so many hardships and tragedies throughout both his childhood and his adult life.
The monster was violent and in search of any and every outlet he could find to unleash his anger.

HusbandSomewhere along the line, the monster had a few meetings with God and learned that he was off track with his misplaced anger and blame.

Four years and six months after getting married, the monster that I joined my life to is nowhere to be found.
The monster has since rebuilt a long dormant relationship with Him and rediscovered that the Savior is just that.

Today is my husbands 33rd birthday, and I am so proud of the man that he is and that he is becoming. I consider myself very fortunate to have found a man with whom I can learn and grow. We’ve been able to rediscover the wonder of the Lord near the same time period together in our marriage and it has been an exciting walk and I’m so thankful that we’ve been able to do it together.

(Happy Birthday, baby.)

Monster
by Skillet

The secret side of me, I’ll never let you see.
I keep it caged but I can’t control it.
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly.
I feel the rage and I just can’t hold it.

It’s scratchin’ on the walls, in the closet, in the halls.
It comes awake and I can’t control it.
Hidin’ under the bed, in my body, in my head.
Why won’t somebody come and save me from this
Make it end.

I feel it deep within
It’s just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster.

My secret side I keep, hid under lock and key.
I keep it caged but I can’t control it.
Cause if I let him out, he’ll tear me up, break me down.
Why won’t somebody come and save me from this
Make it end.

It’s hidin’ in the dark
It’s teeth are razor sharp
There’s no escape for me
It wants my soul, it wants my heart.

No one can hear me scream
Maybe it’s just a dream
Or maybe it’s inside of me
Stop this monster.

I feel it deep within
It’s just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I’m gonna lose control
It’s something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster.

 
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Posted by on March 5, 2013 in Music Speaks, Wife

 

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Music Speaks: Hero

Hero
Skillet

I’m just a step away
I’m just a breath away
Losing my faith today
(Falling off the edge today)

I am just a man
Not superhuman
(I’m not superhuman)
Someone save me from the hate

It’s just another war
Just another family torn
(Falling from my faith today)
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero
(Save me now)
I need a hero to save my life
A hero’ll save me
(Just in time)

I gotta fight today
To live another day
Speaking my mind today 
(My voice will be heard today)

I’ve gotta make a stand
But I am just a man
(I’m not superhuman)
My voice will be heard today

It’s just another war
Just another family torn
(My voice will be heard today)
It’s just another kill
The countdown begins to destroy ourselves

Who’s gonna fight for what’s right
Who’s gonna help us survive

We’re in the fight of our lives

(And we’re not ready to die)

Who’s gonna fight for the wear
Who’s gonna make ’em believe
I’ve got a hero
(I’ve got a hero)

Living in me

I’m gonna fight for what’s right
Today I’m speaking my mind

And if it kills me tonight

(I will be ready to die)
A hero’s not afraid to give his life
A hero’s gonna save me just in time

Everyone is always looking for the person to play the role of the “hero” in their lives; always looking for the “hero” to save them from whatever it is that they are lost in, whether it be addiction, pain, loneliness or any other kind of general darkness.

I myself am no exception to this. I’ve spent much of my life looking for who or whatever I “needed” to fix everything for me. Even after I found God, the habits of my former-self crept into my head and convinced me that I needed help, and it took me a while to discover where that help really needed to come from.

I’ve spent the past year looking for “help”, looking for my “hero”, someone to “fix” my problems. It took me just over a year before I was finally ready for God to remind me that I already had a Hero. He is my Hero. There is One Man who has given His life for me, and for you. There is ONE who has the power to do absolutely anything.

It took me a year to realize that I didn’t need help…I already had all the help I could ask for. Once I acknowledged that truth, my life has been so much fuller and, dare I say, simpler. Upon taking the time to truly embrace my Hero as being such, my stress and anxiety levels have all dropped dramatically, not because of anything I have done, but because of Him.

Not to in any way detract from the usefulness of doctors and health professionals, but in my case, they were not the answer that I needed. They could not “fix” what I deal with.
There is one truth and that is what Jesus said in Mark 10:27,

“With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”

Hero

 
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Posted by on January 27, 2013 in Music Speaks

 

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Music Speaks: Where I Belong

Where I Belong
Building 429

“Sometimes it feels like I’m watching, from the outside.
Sometimes it feels like I’m breathing, But am I alive?
I won’t keep searching for answers that aren’t here to find.

All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I’m lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.

All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

When the earth shakes
I wanna be found in You.
When the lights dim
I wanna be found in You.

All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong.”

I came across this beautiful song a few months ago and while I generally skip through the songs on my iPod at a rapid rate, this is one that I can never skip. Each time I listen to it, I am compelled to sing along, and each time I sing to the Lord “this is not where I belong, take this world and give me Jesus” I experience chills and just an aching in my core. It has taken me some time to find a way to express just what that feeling in my gut is but tonight I finally figured it out. It finally hit me that this is my spirit groaning to be home with my Father. I love this simple yet imperative actuality that this world may be where my body resides, but it certainly is not my home. I do not belong here.

“If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world.”
– John 15:19

 
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Posted by on January 8, 2013 in Music Speaks

 

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Music Speaks: Hope Now

As you likely know (especially since I make it point to be known), I have a social disorder. In my recent past, I have been attempting to deal with some abandonment issues that are highly intensified by my odd little quirks. How have I been “dealing” with these problems? By shutting down. It won’t likely come as a surprise, but that has not solved any of the problems. I’m at the very beginning of climbing out of the hole I’ve been trying my best to live in for the past two or three months, but I can already see the light and have no desire to extinguish the rise.

Part of my ‘light’ has come in the form of true friendship tonight as I thankfully received another opportunity to get together with some people whom I’ve been close to for years. It just so happened that on my way to their home for dinner, I heard the song “Hope Now” by Addison Road

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If everything comes down to love, then just what am I afraid of?
When I call out your name, something inside awakes in my soul.
How quickly I forget I’m yours.
I’m not my own

I’ve been carried by You all my life
Everything rides on hope now.
Everything rides on faith somehow.
When the world has broken me down,
Your love sets me free.
And when my life is like a storm

Rising waters all I want is the shore.
You say I’ll be ok
Make it through the rain.
You are my shelter from the storm.
Everything rides on hope now.
Everything rides on faith somehow.
When the world has broken me down,
Your love sets me free.
You’ve become my hearts desire.
I will sing Your praises higher.

Your love sets me free.

Sometimes it really is the simplest of reminders that are needed to push through the hard times. “When the world has broken me down”, God sets me free. I just needed the right reminder to get through to me, to remind me that while people may abandon us here in this world, God hasn’t gone anywhere. He is here just like He’s always been and no matter how deep a hole I am in, He can always find me and will never forget me.
That is a reason to sing. That is a reason to “sing Your praises higher.”

 
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Posted by on December 10, 2012 in Music Speaks

 

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Music Speaks: Jesus, Friend of Sinners

Casting Crowns
Jesus, Friend Of Sinners

Jesus Friend of sinners we have strayed so far away
We cut down people in your name but the sword was never ours to swing
Jesus friend of sinners the truth’s become so hard to see
The world is on their way to You but they’re tripping over me
Always looking around but never looking up I’m so double minded
A plank eyed saint with dirty hands and a heart divided

Oh Jesus friend of sinners 
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy 
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus friend of sinners break our hearts for what breaks yours

Jesus friend of sinners the one who’s writing in the sand
Make the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands
Help us to remember we are all the least of these
Let the memory of Your mercy bring your people to their knees

Nobody knows what we’re for only against when we judge the wounded
What if we put down our signs crossed over the lines and loved like You did

Oh Jesus friend of sinners 
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy 
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus friend of sinners break our hearts for what breaks yours

You love every lost cause; you reach for the outcast
For the leper and the lame; they’re the reason that You came
Lord I was that lost cause and I was the outcast
But you died for sinners just like me a grateful leper at Your feet

‘Cause You are good, You are good And Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever
You are good, You are good and Your love endures forever

Oh Jesus friend of sinners 
Open our eyes to world at the end of our pointing fingers
Let our hearts be led by mercy 
Help us reach with open hearts and open doors
Oh Jesus friend of sinners break our hearts for what breaks Yours

And I was the lost cause and I was the outcast
You died for sinners just like me, a grateful leper at Your feet

 
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Posted by on August 22, 2012 in Music Speaks

 

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