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Music Speaks: Just Be Held

Music Speaks: Just Be Held

Just Be Held

by Casting Crowns

“Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding onJust Be Held

And when you’re tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There’s freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go

When your eyes are on the storm
You’ll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross you’ll know
I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted
In time you’ll understand
I’m painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in my hands

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where you’ll find Me
And where you are, I’ll hold your heart
I’ll hold your heart
Come to me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who won’t let go

 So when you’re on your knees
And answers seem so far away
You’re not alone
Stop holding on
and Just be held
Your world’s not falling apart
It’s falling into place
I’m on the throne
Stop holding on
and Just be held”

Along with a few others that I will likely be writing, I happened across this song during my husbands last hospitalization. Since that day a little over two months ago, these words have been a great encouragement to me. One of the first things that I did when I picked my husband up from the hospital, was share this song with him. I had it all ready to be played when he got off of the bus that brought him back into town. I wanted to share with him this reminder that I think we all need at some point. “You’re not alone.” Perhaps if we weren’t always trying so hard to solve our own problems, we would be more easily able to “stop holding on” and allow God to take over. If we would really rely on Him, and believe that He is able and will help us, what might happen? Good or bad, things happen according to Gods plan. When you’re strong, it is all in Gods plan. When you’re weak, God is still God, and He is still in control.

It has been a tough and constant reminder that I do not have to be everything to everybody. I am not “everything,” nor was I intended to be. I am not supposed to be able to hold everything together all on my own, along with holding everyone else together. I am supposed to rely on God, and He is able to be everything to everybody.

“If your eyes are on the storm you’ll wonder if I love you still But if your eyes are on the cross you’ll know I always have and I always will.”
Oh how true this is, and can only be known by experiencing it. If we are too busy focusing on everything that is going wrong in our lives, we will miss out on so many good things that are happening, amazing things that have happened and the best thing that has yet to happen. If we focus on the cross, and what happened at Calvary, we can be confident that any suffering that we endure has a purpose and that if we remain on the right path, we will be rewarded in ways greater than we can imagine.

“Where you are I’ll hold your heart…”
Again, how absolutely true. This is a fact that I’ve known, but I keep relearning it. It doesn’t matter where we are, good times or bad times, God is there with us. He never leaves us. If we feel that He has abandoned us…the problem is not God, but the problem is with us. If we can’t see Him working, even in the bad times, there is usually a pretty good chance that we aren’t really looking.

I encourage my readers whoever, and wherever you are, to just take a moment to know and to feel that God loves you. You are in His arms. He is surrounding you with love and comfort. No matter what you are going through, He is bigger, and He is in control. This should be a habit. This needs to be something that we never forget. After all, He doesn’t forget about us.

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Posted by on August 18, 2014 in Music Speaks


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Music Speaks: Hero


I’m just a step away
I’m just a breath away
Losing my faith today
(Falling off the edge today)

I am just a man
Not superhuman
(I’m not superhuman)
Someone save me from the hate

It’s just another war
Just another family torn
(Falling from my faith today)
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero
(Save me now)
I need a hero to save my life
A hero’ll save me
(Just in time)

I gotta fight today
To live another day
Speaking my mind today 
(My voice will be heard today)

I’ve gotta make a stand
But I am just a man
(I’m not superhuman)
My voice will be heard today

It’s just another war
Just another family torn
(My voice will be heard today)
It’s just another kill
The countdown begins to destroy ourselves

Who’s gonna fight for what’s right
Who’s gonna help us survive

We’re in the fight of our lives

(And we’re not ready to die)

Who’s gonna fight for the wear
Who’s gonna make ’em believe
I’ve got a hero
(I’ve got a hero)

Living in me

I’m gonna fight for what’s right
Today I’m speaking my mind

And if it kills me tonight

(I will be ready to die)
A hero’s not afraid to give his life
A hero’s gonna save me just in time

Everyone is always looking for the person to play the role of the “hero” in their lives; always looking for the “hero” to save them from whatever it is that they are lost in, whether it be addiction, pain, loneliness or any other kind of general darkness.

I myself am no exception to this. I’ve spent much of my life looking for who or whatever I “needed” to fix everything for me. Even after I found God, the habits of my former-self crept into my head and convinced me that I needed help, and it took me a while to discover where that help really needed to come from.

I’ve spent the past year looking for “help”, looking for my “hero”, someone to “fix” my problems. It took me just over a year before I was finally ready for God to remind me that I already had a Hero. He is my Hero. There is One Man who has given His life for me, and for you. There is ONE who has the power to do absolutely anything.

It took me a year to realize that I didn’t need help…I already had all the help I could ask for. Once I acknowledged that truth, my life has been so much fuller and, dare I say, simpler. Upon taking the time to truly embrace my Hero as being such, my stress and anxiety levels have all dropped dramatically, not because of anything I have done, but because of Him.

Not to in any way detract from the usefulness of doctors and health professionals, but in my case, they were not the answer that I needed. They could not “fix” what I deal with.
There is one truth and that is what Jesus said in Mark 10:27,

“With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”



Posted by on January 27, 2013 in Music Speaks


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Music Speaks: Where I Belong

Where I Belong
Building 429

“Sometimes it feels like I’m watching, from the outside.
Sometimes it feels like I’m breathing, But am I alive?
I won’t keep searching for answers that aren’t here to find.

All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I’m lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.

All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

When the earth shakes
I wanna be found in You.
When the lights dim
I wanna be found in You.

All I know is I’m not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong.”

I came across this beautiful song a few months ago and while I generally skip through the songs on my iPod at a rapid rate, this is one that I can never skip. Each time I listen to it, I am compelled to sing along, and each time I sing to the Lord “this is not where I belong, take this world and give me Jesus” I experience chills and just an aching in my core. It has taken me some time to find a way to express just what that feeling in my gut is but tonight I finally figured it out. It finally hit me that this is my spirit groaning to be home with my Father. I love this simple yet imperative actuality that this world may be where my body resides, but it certainly is not my home. I do not belong here.

“If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world.”
– John 15:19

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Posted by on January 8, 2013 in Music Speaks


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Music Speaks: Hope Now

As you likely know (especially since I make it point to be known), I have a social disorder. In my recent past, I have been attempting to deal with some abandonment issues that are highly intensified by my odd little quirks. How have I been “dealing” with these problems? By shutting down. It won’t likely come as a surprise, but that has not solved any of the problems. I’m at the very beginning of climbing out of the hole I’ve been trying my best to live in for the past two or three months, but I can already see the light and have no desire to extinguish the rise.

Part of my ‘light’ has come in the form of true friendship tonight as I thankfully received another opportunity to get together with some people whom I’ve been close to for years. It just so happened that on my way to their home for dinner, I heard the song “Hope Now” by Addison Road

                                                                                                                               Hope Now


If everything comes down to love, then just what am I afraid of?
When I call out your name, something inside awakes in my soul.
How quickly I forget I’m yours.
I’m not my own

I’ve been carried by You all my life
Everything rides on hope now.
Everything rides on faith somehow.
When the world has broken me down,
Your love sets me free.
And when my life is like a storm

Rising waters all I want is the shore.
You say I’ll be ok
Make it through the rain.
You are my shelter from the storm.
Everything rides on hope now.
Everything rides on faith somehow.
When the world has broken me down,
Your love sets me free.
You’ve become my hearts desire.
I will sing Your praises higher.

Your love sets me free.

Sometimes it really is the simplest of reminders that are needed to push through the hard times. “When the world has broken me down”, God sets me free. I just needed the right reminder to get through to me, to remind me that while people may abandon us here in this world, God hasn’t gone anywhere. He is here just like He’s always been and no matter how deep a hole I am in, He can always find me and will never forget me.
That is a reason to sing. That is a reason to “sing Your praises higher.”


Posted by on December 10, 2012 in Music Speaks


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Music Speaks: Leaving Eden

Leaving Eden by Brandon Heath


Headlines read like a warning, we’re under attack. (One more step away.)
I just waved to a stranger, he didn’t wave back. (One more step away.)
And if it weren’t for my TV, I wouldn’t know what is real. (One more step away.)
My doctor can’t do a thing for how I feel.
Feels like I’m leaving Eden.
Feels like I’m leaving Eden.
People are losing their homes to hurricanes. (One more step away.)

Old lady living next door forgot her own name. (One more step away.)
Teacher is hiding her Bible but at least she’s got a job. (One more step away.)
My local Salvation Army just got robbed.
Feels like I’m leaving Eden.
Feels  like I’m leaving Eden.”
It’s like I’m further away with every step I take
And I can’t go back ’cause I’m leaving Eden.

I’m going, going home.
I’m going, going home.
There’s no place, no place like home.
There’s no place, no place like home.

When you’re leaving Eden.
When you’re leaving Eden.
It’s like I’m further away with every step I take
And I can’t go back ’cause I’m leaving Eden.


This song was actually sad for me when I first started listening to it. Really listening to the words, was somewhat scary, knowing the truth behind each statement. After a while, as I’ve grown closer to God, I can’t listen to the song without getting chills at the least. There are so many negatives in the world today, and every little thing that happens really is pulling us further and further from the pure beauty that God created when man was placed into the Garden of Eden. Now, the world as a collective is just walking away from the garden. When the song bridges into “I’m going, going home”, the beauty and reality of that statement just floors me. It’s almost unreal. The feeling that comes with knowing you’re “going home” is nearly inexplicable, but if you’re living your life for the Lord, that is what’s happening. That is where you’re going. To a place where all of the bad things listed in the song are what isn’t a part of reality. How amazing will that be?

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Posted by on June 16, 2012 in Music Speaks


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Music Speaks: Steady My Heart

I woke up this morning, and my day started off with less than perfect circumstances. As I’ve said before, we had to renew our car tags, which required quite a large sum of money. Well, we took care of it as soon as we could, but that made us short for the other bills that we have due this week. Not the worse of all possible problems by any means, but it was enough to have me down in the dumps.

I kept telling myself all morning that I needed to make it a priority to not just forget or ignore God today because things weren’t going my way. I prayed, I tried to get my spirits up, but nothing was working. I decided to go visit my dad, living about thirty-minutes away from me, so I got my daughter ready, and turned on my iPod and got set up for the drive. Just as I was getting close to my parents house, a song started playing. It wasn’t a song that I was incredibly familiar with. I had heard it on the radio once and decided I liked the sound of it. Like I said, I had been praying. God knew exactly what I needed, and He gave it to me as a reminder in the form of this song. The song is “Steady My Heart” by  Kari Jobe

Wish it could be easy,
Why is life so messy?
Why is pain a part of us?
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right.
Sometimes it just hurts so much.
But You’re here,
You’re real.
I know I can trust you.
Even when it hurts,
Even when it’s hard,
Even when it all just falls apart,

I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars.
You steady my heart.
I’m not gonna worry
I know that You got me
Right inside the palm of Your hand.
Each and every moment
What’s good and what gets broken
Happens just the way that You plan.
And I will run to You
You’re my refuge in Your arms.

And I will sing to You
Cause of everything You are.
Even when it hurts,
Even when it’s hard,
Even when it all just falls apart,

I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars.
You steady my heart. “

These words were exactly what I needed to hear. Before the song was over, I could feel the freedom of giving my problems to God, as I had tried to do earlier in the morning, but just couldn’t figure out how to. A sense of peace and joy washed over me, and I felt Gods presence and I knew that I didn’t have to worry about the things that were going on. God will worry about it for me, and He will make sure that my family is taken care of by giving us whatever we need, whether it be financially or by maybe teaching a lesson that we need to learn. Either way, it doesn’t matter right now. All that matters is that I know that He will provide.

Since hearing that song this morning (and maybe listening to it three or four more times), I’ve been in a wonderful mood. Not because of the song, but because of the meaning, because of the wonderful God that I serve. I’m not usually a crying type of person, but as I was listening to this (the first time), and I finally “got it”, I was just in awe of how amazing God is. That He would send me this little reminder, at the exact moment that I needed it, was just a miniscule example of His awesome love and power.

I have been learning so much, and honestly trying very hard to listen for God. I had always questioned in the past, whether or not God was “talking” to me, because I never felt like He was really telling me anything or leading me anywhere. I began to make a conscious effort to listen, and…that’s all it takes. I could have easily skipped the song, or chosen to let my nasty mood rule me, but I was wanting God to take over. I took that song as a gift from Him. Just as Satan puts stumbling blocks in our way, God puts answers in front of us, we just have to learn to watch for them.




Posted by on June 1, 2012 in Life in General, Music Speaks


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Learning to Walk

Music is a powerful thing. I’ve loved music ever since I was a little girl. In the second grade I was the student of the month, and had to draw a picture of what I wanted to be when I grew up…I drew me on a stage, singing. The only problem with that? I can hardly speak in front of people, much less sing in front of them. Still, music holds lots of meaning to me. I can listen to almost any song, and find some way to relate it to my life. Each and every event in my life, has a song attached to it, whether it’s because the song had meaning to the event itself, or simply because it can perfectly describe feelings or situations. There are songs that signify my childhood, songs that remind me of my dad, my mom, my sister, my first love, my first heartbreak, exes old friends, dating my husband, getting married, having my child, etc. I will listen to every type of music. There is no standard to me, I will listen to absolutely any type, and while people usually get very annoyed by that (for some reason), I am actually very pleased by it. I feel that it shows my diversity. It’s all art to me, and I appreciate different kinds of art.

While my “diversity” is usually something I am proud of, it has its occassional drawbacks, such as listening to an old favorite and having it bring up memories of things, times or most often, people who I don’t really want to think about anymore. On the other hand, music and lyrics will often describe the feelings that I have yet to find the words for. Currently the song that best ascertains my feelings/thoughts is “What If I Stumble” by DC Talk.

What if I stumble? What if I fall? What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all? Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl? What if I stumble? What if I fall?”

It hadn’t crossed my mind in any way until I recently heard this song, but the symbolism of “my walk becomes a crawl” just hit me very hard, and I realized that it sort of sums up where I feel that I’m at in my walk with the Lord. I feel that I’m crawling. I’m not including God in my daily life as I once did, and it’s not intentional, and it’s not the way I want to continue to live. I hadn’t realized that I felt that way, until it was put into these words that just made me get it. 

This song has become a new favorite, and has been the jump-start that I didn’t know that I needed to remember to seek God in all that I do. Like anything, it’s a habit that has to be formed. Right now, unfortunately, it isn’t easy, it isn’t automatic to think about God first in every situation that comes up.

This last month has been a very financially stressful month for my family, and with what seems like everything crumbling down while we fight to get by, it was excellent timing to hear this new (to me) song, and this new reminder. It couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m so thankful that I serve a God who will allow me to make mistakes, and will always take me back into his arms.

“I hear You whispering my name [You say] ‘My love for you will never change’.”

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Posted by on April 21, 2012 in Life in General


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